How the Darkness Uses Good Conscious People
By Goddess Incarnate Kim Macy
It’s heart-breaking to witness and I wonder if it will always surprise me…People I love, spirits shining so brightly through the vessel of the physical body, suddenly taking a turn toward ugliness. Every time it happens, I ask myself if it will ever cease to amaze me. As I deepen into the increasing awareness of what I am and how I choose to walk in the world, I realize that I am a spiritually, emotionally mature Divine Child. An Innocent. I remember my sweet Brother Bear saying it to me one time after a sweat lodge ceremony we facilitated. “You have the heart of an Innocent.” I hadn’t realized it. You know how you’re just walking along, living your life, and someone reflects something back to you and you’re like, “Who me? Really?” As someone who serves my heart and the Love on the planet and in the Multiverse, I walk with most certain humility. I am very confident, yes, and also eternally humble as I bow before the brilliance and the beauty of this sweet Blue Planet and the miracle of my own body. I love singing “How Great Thou Art!” at the top of my lungs in the shower and the yard! So when my brother shared that with me, it was during a time when I had been very hard on myself and extremely critical. This was several years ago before I understood how the Darkness turns us against our own selves and others.
Be careful with the quiet inner shredding of the self, the endless “not good enough.” Also beware of the inflated version of the self that is rooted in false perceptions and ultimately leads to your own delusions. We are already in a world of total Illusion, a Diversion from the Truth of What We Are and what we are doing here. The last thing you need is to be delusional within the illusional!!
I encourage all who are reading this to drop into your hearts right now. Breathe in and out, an awareness growing of the lovely emerald green glow emanating from your Heart Center. It’s easy. Don’t make it hard or wonder if you are doing it right. Then plug into the Beauty of this Good Green Earth, taking in the sunshine and breathing it like liquid Love into your body. If you’re reading this at night, search the sky for stars, moon, planets. Light reflects the core of who you are.
Since I moved to Kansas City from Austin, Texas in 1997, I have been adjusting. At first I thought it was the obvious difference between Texans and Midwesterners. I thought people were so rude! In Texas, I never met a stranger. Out here, I learned to pull my energy in and not look for connection with strangers. Now, almost 20 years later, I understand that the people of the Heartland are kind, they just don’t always open right away. That’s a whole other story! I couldn’t figure out what was going on with the people. Because I was 23, I was still in the Cocoon of Love my family and my hometown wrapped me in all my life. I trusted everyone. I believed everyone when they told me who they were and what they were about. What a shock to my system when I discovered the bullshit! Is this a part of aging? Is this the path of eradicating my own ignorance and blind trust of others? I know these experiences taught me to discern fact from fiction, fake people and false prophets. I was so blessed to meet legit people during this time as well. But the amount of bullshit was astounding!
Currently, there is an energy moving through my personal awareness around holding people accountable. In the spiritual community, there is a plague of Spiritual Bypassing. For more on this topic, please do yourself a favor and read Spiritual Bypassing by Robert Augustus Masters. Somehow, people are validating the breach of commitment, the lack of their own integrity, violating their own word and signed agreements in favor of doing whatever they want, even as it harms a woman, a Priestess, a Lover, her family and her children. I don’t know how they reconcile it within themselves and have come to the conclusion that it is Personal Delusion Within the Illusion.
The Illusion itself is thick and deep within the consciousness of Earth School. It’s part of the journey. But keeping your wits about you in the Dark Night of the Soul, in the Valley of the Shadow of Death, takes great skill and determination to live according to integrity and honesty. It’s quite simple: If I say I’m going to do something, I do it. If I commit to participating or contributing, I do it. I follow through. My word is my bond and I take it very seriously. I don’t dick around with my own bullshit of “I don’t wanna, I’m tired, I wanna do something else.” That’s why I take my commitments so seriously. Because I will NOT go back on them.
I’m aware that the Darkness LOVES greed, loves jealousy, loves it when you compare yourself to others and find them lacking and “not good enough”. Oh it just DELIGHTS in that shit! This is different from discerning fact from fiction, from operating from your Heart Center, in alignment with your Soul Self outside of the Illusion of this earthly realm. I love unconditionally with very clear boundaries. I never act from a place of lack or loathing. I can get hurt, betrayed, my trust can be violated and even then, I see the other person’s point of view. But that doesn’t mean that just because I understand their skewed perception of “reality” that I do not hold them accountable. It’s like my Mama always told me as a child: “I love you baby, but you just can’t act like that.”
To those who have brought harm to themselves by treating others cruelly and with selfishness, greed and jealousy, I feel sad for you. You forgot the Love. You got trapped in the Illusion. You reap what you sow and there is a massive Boomerang Effect on this planet. What you send out, you get back. Period. Sure, experiences come into our awareness that might test whether or not we value ourselves and provide us with the opportunity to stand up for ourselves. All Good will come from that. But if your heart is not in the right place, it will be no secret. It will be obvious to those who are Awake enough to see and hear. And you can only hide from yourself for so long. That emptiness, that void, that sense that something isn’t quite right, that inability to be content or happy, peace-filled and calm even though technically everything is just “fine” in your world, that will haunt you in the most quiet moments. And then what? You have to deal with You. Good luck! Lemme know if I can help. (Learn more here)
Make a decision today to stay focused on the Light Within. Don’t let the darkness fill your heart and cloud your mind. You all have Light at your Core. Expand it. Illuminate! Remember the Love. Love…with Boundaries.