I Didn’t Know

I didn’t know it was going to be like this…

I didn’t know that we were going to do this

I didn’t know that we weren’t going to do that

I didn’t know that it was going to be this deep, this painful, this illuminating, this exhilarating

I didn’t know that it was going to force me to look…

At myself

At my shadow

At my power

At my powerlessness

I didn’t know that it was going to kick up deep-seeded feelings of low self worth

I didn’t know I was going to feel stupid, ill-equipped, dumb, like a child

I didn’t know that it was going to hurt

I didn’t know if I could make it

I didn’t know if I could handle it

I didn’t even know if I wanted to.

But I do.

I want to know.

What is this Mystery that is me, that is the Earth, that is Power, that is Source, that is Container, that is Shadow, that is Following the Thread, that is the Trigger, that is the Gold, that is the Wound, that is the Medicine, that is the Wisdom?

My Wisdom.

My personal Medicine, the salve that heals my own wounds and may in turn help so many others.

I WANT TO KNOW.

I want to do the deep dive.

I want to plumb the depths of my soul in order to recover all the pieces of myself.

I embrace my wholeness, my Holiness, embrace the sacred in all things, including this piece and that trigger and this shadow.

For you are all my teachers.

And I honor you.

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Why I LOVE RuPaul’s Drag Race

My daughter kept telling me about this show featuring drag queens, female impersonators who perform all over the world as gussied up, gorgeous versions of their selves. The first time I watched an episode with her, I thought the queens were too catty and bitchy with each other and literally couldn’t watch them be so petty with one another. But one episode hooked me. There is a part on every season of the show where they get to the final four contestants competing to be the top Drag Queen. RuPaul, in full glorious drag, pulls out a poster sized photo of the contestant at age 4 or 5 or 6 and asks each queen to speak to the little boy in the picture. This is totally Inner Child Soul Retrieval and part of the work I do with my clients. I bawl every single time. The Mama in me just wants these little babies to feel loved. So what if they’re effeminate? So what if they’re girly? So what if they’re different? Why is the world SO CRUEL to these boys? Do ya’ll realize that they kill themselves over this shit??

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Danny Noriega as a little boy

I love this show because in a world that forces everyone to fit in the tiniest, tightest box of “appropriate” self-expression, these bitches are fighting for their very lives. They are determined to not only BE who they are, but CELEBRATE who they are. And it is absolutely beautiful. They are creative and catty and funny. They are SURVIVORS. They made it through their horrible childhoods where they are belittled and rejected, kicked out by their parents, even abused by those who are supposed to love them and still, they find their way to Beauty and Expression. They are fearless.

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Danny Noriega as Adore, Drag Queen

The show inspires me every time I watch it. If these men who long to feel pretty and feminine can find a way to love their feminine side, surely we women can also find a way. Big, small, fat, skinny, young, old, funny, serious, smart, dumb-it doesn’t matter. Each queen transforms her insecurity and pain into entertainment, joy, pleasure, and laughter. GO GIRLS GO! I bow down to your courage and strength. Thank you for having the fire within you to show ALL of us how to love ourselves. Now sissy that walk…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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We Welcome You to Sacred Space

News of the Women’s March planned for Saturday, January 21, 2017 spread across Facebook like wildfire. I first planned to go to Washington D.C.but after searching for an affordable hotel room or Air BnB and coming up empty, I decided maybe my efforts would be better utilized closer to home. I evaluated the best way to make an impact with the movement and discovered the perfect way to expend my energy: Self, Home/Family, School, Community, City, State, Country, World. As a busy mom who is self-employed, I had to prioritize my focus and work with my energy in a way that was sustainable and collaborative.

Five days before the March, I had a brilliant idea. I contacted the organizers of the event and asked if I could create a “pop-up” Goddess Temple on site and invoke the Great Mother at the beginning of the March. Unbelievably, they said YES to the Temple! They welcomed me to offer an Opening Prayer and Call the Directions just outside the Temple before the Women’s March began.

Saturday morning, my little brother, my daughter, and one of my priestesses-in-training arrived super early to the downtown location where the March would begin. We got to work, each of us contributing to this community effort. We set up an altar at the back of the Temple featuring one of our most ancient Goddesses, Inanna, nestled on an elevated platform, the table draped in a rich purple and gold altar cloth. Tall, thin, wooden praying priestesses flanked the centerpiece with candles shining across the surface. FullSizeRender (1)

At another table, We created a Cleansing Station with holy water that I blessed and scented with essential oils designed to clear the energetic field. A ceramic pot with fragrant dried lavender and cedar sat ready with the feathers used to smudge people.
Another station displayed instructions to use Flying Wish paper to write intentions, prayers, and wishes and set them on fire, watching them burn up and float magically into the air, leaving only wisps of ash! 

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Make a Wish Station

After hanging strands of jewels and placing a Welcome sign out front, we were ready to circle up and call on Spirit.  FullSizeRenderThe circle of women and men, mothers and daughters that gathered for prayer were many more that I expected. I asked a friend to help us sing the Cheyenne Water Blessing song the women sing and many sang during the fight protesting the Dakota Access Pipeline. My friend had asked how we in Kansas City could support their efforts and they said, “Sing our prayers with your people.”We drummed and sang then prayed together for the leadership in our country and around the world. We prayed for the hearts and the conscious minds of all of our leaders. Then we sang to each Direction and called each Element while casting a circle of Love. I was so overcome feeling the presence of Spirit that I half-cried, half-sang the Call. After all 7 directions were called, we vibrated with so much energy, I was shaking! A friend suggested we give all that energy to the crowd and we did-all 10,000 of them! It was exhilarating!

 

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Goddess Temple at the Women’s March in Kansas City January 21, 2017

We talked with hundreds of people about the Goddess that day and helped mothers with their children to light their wishes. My priestess-in-training smudged people for hours! We prayed with people, sang with people, cried with people…we couldn’t help but ask ourselves, “What would it be like to have an actual Goddess Temple?” The opportunity to serve our community in that way was so powerful and rewarding. It lit up my soul purpose, activating a vision of pop-up temples all over Kansas City, visiting regional festivals and offering people a sacred space to gather and feel the warmth and comfort of the Divine Mother. It wasn’t until Beltane* weekend that I allowed myself to imagine the True Vision…a permanent Temple of the Goddess in the heart of Kansas City.

40% of Americans describe themselves as spiritual but not religious. Communities are leaving churches in droves as people seek a more authentic connection with their spirits, faith, and something greater than themselves. We know that our current modern culture and pace does not support peaceful, soul-centered living. People are more stressed, more anxious, more depressed, and more isolated than ever before. How would our lives be different if we had a place to congregate with one another, showing up soul-to-soul, heart-to-heart, in our personal spiritual truth? How would our children feel, supported by a community of women of all ages, sharing their life wisdom in the way our grandmothers used to? How would the mothers feel, knowing they are not isolated and alone in the challenges of mothering but lovingly held by wise women mentoring them through various stages of life? What if we eliminated sin and sinner from the conversation and replaced it with the message of Beloved Child of God/Goddess?

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Jesus Calling the Children to Him, this is the way I was raised!

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My Beloved Children

We need the Return of the Great Mother. It’s time to live in right relationship with the Mother Earth, She Who Gives so freely everything that we need: our food, our water, our shelter, our clothes, our cars, gas to power our vehicles, our medicine, plants, herbs, supplements. Everything comes from the Earth and we no longer disregard Her unconditional love and support, Her constant giving without acknowledging the Source of All Life as this Divine Feminine power. We look to the natural rhythms in nature to harmonize our businesses, our families, our education, our medicine. How has Mother Nature existed and sustained life on Earth all this time? She is constantly evolving and changing, adjusting according to the ebb and flow of Life Force Energy on the planet. She knows the secrets to Life itself and will share them easily with those who will listen and open their hearts. Let us gather together as Her precious children and heal ourselves as we heal our world.  Women's March 2017

*Beltane is an ancient solar Holy Day celebrating fertility, fire, and Sacred Union between God and Goddess.                                   

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The Ego and The Soul, The Caterpillar and the Butterfly

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The Ego and The Soul, The Caterpillar and the Butterfly

Any time we embark on a spiritual journey with a personal commitment to discover our soul truth, our ego FREAKS OUT! The ego’s job is to keep you in a comfort zone, actively using all your unconscious and subconscious coping mechanisms. The ego takes its job very seriously-it is the source of your Identity here on Planet Earth. The trick is to allow the ego to serve the heart and soul. That is how to keep it in right alignment.

The moment you make your Commitment, your “stuff” may start to get kicked up. As the facilitator of the Temple of the Goddess Mystery School, I continually refine and refine my own life and experience to release trappings of the fear-mind. I am able to work through the layers of my own story, aligning myself with my personal truth at deeper levels of my subconscious and conscious mind. It doesn’t make the work any less work! But the awareness of what I gain personally as I claim and express my soul truth unencumbered by a self-imposed cage of limitation serves as a comforting guide to my own process.

When a caterpillar feels it is time, she begins to process of weaving her chrysalis around her. She spins her cocoon and settles in for metamorphosis. She does not ask how long it will take, nor does she know what she will encounter. She exists in the cocooned state. She begins to generate her butterfly self through imaginal cells. I love it! These imaginal cells vibrate at a different frequency than the caterpillar cells and so, unfamiliar with this new vibration, the caterpillar’s immune system perceives them as the enemy and attacks them, successfully fighting them off. Or so she thinks…enough of the butterfly cells survive the attack and link together to mount another attack. As Norie Huddle writes in her book Butterfly:

These new imaginal cells continue to appear. More and more of them! Pretty soon, the caterpillar’s immune system cannot destroy them fast enough.  And then an amazing thing happens! The little tiny lonely imaginal cells start to clump together, into friendly little groups. They all resonate together at the same frequency, passing information from one to another. The clumps of imaginal cells start to cluster together!… A long string of clumping and clustering imaginal cells, all resonating at the same frequency, all passing information from one to another there inside the chrysalis.”

The battle between the caterpillar self (the old form) and the butterfly self (the new form) results in the caterpillar dissolving into total mush. The butterfly actually feeds on the caterpillar mush until the strength of this new vibration overtakes the old and the butterfly fully forms. The chrysalis, described as “an enclosing shell that limits the caterpillar’s freedom for the duration of the transformation” (Anodea Judith, Waking the Global Heart) serves its purpose as Ground Zero of her metamorphosis. Her struggle is not yet complete, however, for now, she must break out of the comfort of her cocoon. And so it is with the Temple of the Mystery School container. You are in the cocoon. Your Feminine Power and personal truth are contained in your own imaginal cells. Your limiting beliefs, perceptions of lack and self-worth, deepest inner fears, and life-long coping mechanisms are held within your caterpillar self. The inner battle you experience is simply due to the introduction of the new vibration. You will battle yourself. You will resist the transformation. But at some point, your old belief systems become the food that feeds your new perspective as your imaginal cells strengthen and devour your old way of thinking. Your butterfly self is ready to emerge.

It is said that if you help the butterfly out of her cocoon, she will die. The struggle of Emergence is part of the process, for it forces air into her wet wings so that she is able to fly. “The pushing forces enzymes from the body to wing tips…strengthening the wing muscles, and reducing body weight allowing it to fly. This process started with struggle and ended with the butterfly flying the moment it came out of the cocoon.” (Nutrition for Mental Health).

My best advice during this transformational time is to Be Present to your own self, loving and nurturing yourself throughout the struggle. I encourage you not to resist but to surrender to it while trusting yourself to emerge as the Beautiful Butterfly! With love and blessings within your chrysalis…Kim.

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What is a Priestess?

A Priestess is a woman dedicated to her sacred work, clearly connected with her soul purpose.  She listens deeply to the voice of her spirit and lives in harmony with herself and others. She gathers wisdom from every challenge and sees them as golden opportunities for growth. She dives deeply into her subconscious mind, always seeking understanding as she unlocks her own Great Mystery. She lives in harmony with the Earth and honors the bounty of abundance that the Great Mother shares with all of us. She activates healing through love of self, love for others, for our planet and all Life. She listens. She hears. She assimilates.  She dances with the light and the dark, balancing the shadow and the light of her being.

She uses everything she has, all her gifts, talents, connections and resources and honors all of it. She serves her family and community. She holds the vibration of her infinite and eternal spirit with ease, while staying firmly rooted in the energies of Earth. She exists as a clear resonant field which others may sense and discover their own clear path to connecting with their spirit selves, to remember what they are at the soul level. She honors the feminine and the masculine as equal energies contributing to the whole. She is empowered from the spark of light within and does not look outside of herself for approval. She loves herself through her fears, accepts herself and her perceived “weaknesses” and honors all of it for the brilliant gift of life it is. She easily holds a space of non-judgment, honoring all expressions as a vibration, frequency, archetypal pattern, system, specific energetic flow… She is crystal clear in her discernment, unafraid of “rocking the boat” for the sake of truth and justice. She is the pure expression of her Soul Self, reflecting multiple lifetimes filled with challenges, opportunities, loves lost and gained, lessons about power, manipulation and clarity, forever seeking out and claiming more of who she is as she travels the Earth Path again and again.

She allows for all possibilities. She does not limit the lens through which she perceives Life.

She understands the quantum nature of reality and consciously chooses to be present on Earth, here and now, while connected to her infinite and eternal soul, Star Family, Ancestors, Spirit Guides, Angelic Team, higher dimensional beings offering support and assistance while anchoring on Earth with lovers, friends, family, colleagues and community. She does not value the Above more than the Below, Heaven more than Earth, God more than Goddess. She values the mundane as the magical, in harmony with the creation that exists all around her and within her.

She is a Ceremonialist, creating ceremony to honor the Turning of the Wheel, the Solar Holy Days, the Lunar Cycles, bridging Heaven and Earth within her own body to bring healing lovelight to the Earth and Her people. In harmony with the cycles of Life, Death, Rebirth and the Void, she feels these rhythms in her own spirit and intuitively creates Living Ceremony to honor the passage of time and the gathering of personal wisdom through physical, spiritual and emotional  experience.

She trusts herself and the deep wisdom flowing within her that is her birthright.

What do you think of when you explore the word Priestess? Please feel free to share with me by emailing Kim@KimMacy.com.  

 

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Women’s Spiritual Health

Mission: To position Women’s Spiritual Health as the foundation for mental and physical health. The Path: Empowering women to nurture personal spiritual health as we support our children and famili…

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